I wear a mask of laughter always playing the fool

But deep down inside my heart is drowning in a pool

Of sadness and despair hidden from the world’s view

I act so childishly but it’s just a ruse, a facade a lie so true

I cling to innocence to youth to simpler times

But in doing so I’ve lost my way, forgotten all my rhymes

I dance and sing and play but the tears are never far

I’m trapped in a cycle of perpetual immaturity a captive behind bars

I long to break free to shed this childish skin

To face the world with courage with strength from deep within

But I’m too afraid too scarred by pain and loss

So I keep on dancing, laughing, pretending that I’m not the boss

But deep down I know this charade cannot last

One day the mask will crumble revealing the shadows of the past

And on that day I’ll be forced to confront the truth

That my childish acts were just a cover a facade of all my youth

So for now I’ll keep on playing keep on pretending it’s all okay

But deep inside I’ll never be afraid that one day I’ll have to pay

For all the childish anties all the games I’ve played

And that moment of reckoning my true self will be displayed